Well first off...Happy Halloween! Hope everyone has a fun and safe night. We are meeting up with our wonderful neighbors and taking the kids out together and then all hanging out together for a while. Its gonna be fun, how cool that Halloween is on a Friday AND its gonna be beautiful outside!! Pinch me I must be dreaming! Tune back in tomorrow for adorable pics.
So today I had an interview at Target and got the job. I'll be helping out over the holidays, 20-30 hrs per week. I'm sure it will be exhausting, but also exciting, and it will be nice to come out even, if not ahead on Christmas! We'll have to see after the beginning of the year if I stay on. Maybe 1 shift a weekend wouldn't be so bad to keep some extra cash flow coming in. Or maybe Aaron will be making millions or we'll win the lottery by then and I won't have to worry about it! lol
So here is a video of Austin practicing walking around the kitchen. I caught him at the end so it doesn't look like much here, but he had gone all the way around the kitchen! It won't be long till he is walking, I'm sure. How crazy. Mackenzie started walking at a year, Turner at 10 months, so I think Austin will be somewhere in the middle.

Monday night I took Turner to a Parents as Teachers party they were having for soon to be 3 year olds. It was fun to have one on one time with my little guy!

Nana and her babies. Thanks so much for coming up mom - we love you and miss you!

Sunday night we did pumpkins. Opened them up to get all the goo out - that's the fun part, and then gave the kids markers to do the outside. I know we didn't need to empty them out if we weren't even going to cut them - but what fun would that have been!

Earlier in the day on Sunday my mom and I took the kids to a fall festival thing at a nearby church.

"Mmmmm...Cotton Candy!" Nothing like spun sugar!!

"Look Mom, I'm riding a horsie!"

The calm before the storm

OK, so maybe yesterdays post was a little premature, but not false. Yesterday afternoon was a little rough. I picked Mackenzie up from school at about 1:15. Turner feel asleep in the car on the way there. Unfortunately, he woke up when we got home which meant just a 15 minutes nap....and we all know what a 15 minute nap means for a 2 year old that didn't get to sleep until late the night before, woke up early AND is sick!!!! LOTS of meltdowns. Needless to say, by 6:50 I had his PJs on and had him laying in Mackenzie's bed watching a movie to go to sleep. Mackenzie went in there then too, and Austin went down about 7:30. I guess the big kids didn't actually go to sleep until around 8-8:30, but it did seem like we had a lot of adult quiet time last night. So the moral of the story, I'll be the first to admit that being a "stay at home mom" isn't all the picture perfect moments of story time and crafts, nice naps, and wonderful lunches - but it is awesome. I love that I have more time to complete all of the chores on my plate and still have more time with the kids in a more relaxed setting and when I don't have to be in a hurry all the time. It really does change me, just ask Aaron. Of course I don't know that I would have ever been able to fully appreciate if I hadn't been the working mom first. Maybe someday it will be a long term option - but that would probably end up being an option right when all the kids were in school and then I'd rather be working! Funny how that all works out. But maybe at least I can still hold out that I can be a stay at home Grandma - of course that better be quite a ways off!!

I'll try to post again later on more stuff from this weekend.

Tuesdays for Tuesday

It is Tuesday....please remember to pray for little Tuesday today. She is having scans so lets pray they don't see much on them!

I'm home today, having a good time being a "stay at home mom". Kids had baths this morning, breaksfast, took mackenzie to school, Cameron to work, me and the boys went to work out, came home, Austin nap, Turner lunch and resting.....This is the good life!!

Oh go fly a kite!

And so we did! Here is Mackenzie flying her kite yesterday. We were just sitting around and I decided to take the kids outside for a little while, and she asked if she could get her kite out from "Robby" and so I did, ended up it was a perfect day to fly a kite.

"See mom, I TOLD you it was the perfect day to fly a kite"

"Hey mom, you think if I let it go it will fly away!"

Autin falling asleep on Daddy...AGAIN. He falls asleep like this in no time at all. Amazing. Guess daddy make a good comfy pillow!

Friday night we had our normal gymnastics. (BTW Fran, I changed nights to Tuesdays now so maybe we can get together more on Fridays now.) Just by the end of the week I was so tired. So now that we are done with soccer and won't have practices anymore, Tuesday will work much better. Later that night after I got home, Turner came and sat up in the chair with me while I gave Austin his bottle, and low and behold I lean over and feel his forehead and he is running a fever...AGAIN. And Austin has been pulling at his ear, so Saturday morning I took Austin in to the doctor and although she said his ear didn't look that bad, it did have fluid in it and it was clearly bothering him, so we decided to go ahead and treat. Turner stopped running his fever last night, and seems fine. Saturday we had Mackenzie's last soccer game. It was a make-up game from one that had been rained out and only 3 kids showed up so she played the entire game - and we still whooped that other team! lol We were supposed to have friends over Saturday night, but being as Turner had a fever, we didn't want to expose the twins to sickness so we will have to reschedule...AGAIN. Oh well, maybe we'll just try to plan on getting the adults together, seems easier:) But we did end up going out last night after the kids went to bed because Cameron agreed to stay home with the kiddos. Today we haven't done much yet. Planning on hitting a fall festival in a minute and my mom just showed up and is making us dinner YUMMY.

Good-bye Nany

Well, tonight is the last time I will be picking the kids up from Nany's house. I'm sure I will be blubbering idiot when i leave. It will be hard. This is the letter I have written to her.

Nany,

I’m attempting to write you this letter to let you know just how thankful I am for finding you 3 years ago, but I’m sure it won’t fully capture my true appreciation and admiration. It is so sad to me that we have to change the boys, and I hope that you truly know it is a change of necessity, not of choice or due to any other reason than my work location changing. And I am sorry that I had to move up the timeline from March, but there is SO much uncertainty in my job right now, that at any moment they could move me and when I found this new babysitter, I felt comfortable and knew that I would be confident in my choice.

You have been much more to me and my family over the past 3 years than JUST a babysitter. You have been there with us through monumental times in our lives, and for that you will always be associated with our memories of these past years. During times when we haven’t had much family around, you have been there for me to talk to when I’ve needed to talk, to reassure me when I’ve doubted myself, and offer advice when I was unsure.

In the past three years, I’ve been able to go to work each day knowing that my children were in good hands. That they were being not only taken care of, but loved. It is truly the greatest gift you could have ever given me. I do not take that lightly. I’ve often replied to the compliments I get on the children that their behavior and politeness are much more due to your doing than mine. But in the same, it has given me the ability to let my guard down more at home and enjoy them. (I didn’t feel quite so bad having to give the kids cereal for dinner some night when I was too exhausted to cook because I knew they had had a good warm meal at your house.)

You’ve seen many kids come and go over the years, kids will come in that will replace us, and we are only a speck in list of kids you’ve seen throughout the years, but you are our ONLY Nany. We may be one of hundreds, but you are one of only a select few people I will entrust my children to throughout our lives. You have become part of our family, whether you knew it or not, and you will forever be.

I hope that today is not an end to this relationship. Although we won’t see each other every day, and the relationship will inevitably change, I hope we keep in touch. Maybe some night we can come up and take you to dinner. (Mackenzie was asking again last night when you two were going to have your special dinner together – I hope that can still be done – she will never forget J )

I heard this CD playing in the store last night and thought it was such beautiful music. So relaxing and comforting, emulating the same feelings that I associate with your house. There were many times that I wished I could have gotten to stay and lay on your couch! Thank you so much Nany….we love you!

The Lively’s - 2008
Aaron, Jennifer, Mackenzie, Turner and Austin

We will all miss Nany dearly. But I am confident in my new choice for babysitter and am ready to start the next chapter. We are keeping the kids home for the next 2 weeks, and they start with Ms. Mistie on the 10th.

My blast from the past

Ok, so the other day I’m on a quad site that I follow and low and behold they mention Bishop Carrol HS – wow what a throwback! I went there the first half of my freshman year. So I had to email to see if it was the same one, she emailed back sure enough. I think they are a year or two younger than me, so probably class of 98 or 99. Which got me thinking, wonder about Jenny and Josh and what ever happened with them. They were a couple, she was around 6 months prego when we met (I know shocker right, that I befriend the prego chick! LOL) I don’t know why, but I’ve thought about them quite a bit over the past few years. Sure we didn’t know each other for long, but we were together like every day for that time! But I’ve never really looked for them. SO yesterday I’m driving home and talking to my mom about it all and suddenly their last names came to me from out of nowhere – seriously. So she did a quick search and WhaLa - we found them both.
These are pictures on here to share with Jenny. Oh how I wish digital cameras had been around then so we could have seen how these turned out and did some retakes!!

Jenny, Josh, and their baby Justin.

This was homecoming that year. I thought I was in heaven! I thought he was the most handsome guy in school and he asked ME - the new girl! It was my first "date". He was a Junior and 16, so he picked me up in his car and we drove to the dance.

Here today, gone tomorrow

Wow, this title could mean so many things. In its simplest form, it means I'm hear today at work, but tomorrow won't be for the morning. My babysitter called yesterday and said she has some "emergency" that she has to go to tomorrow morning at 9. I have no idea. It has been hard because she doesn't even talk to me now that we are leaving. Someone I've brought in to our family for the past 3 years, she has been like a grandparent to my kids, and they will never forget "Nany" and yet she is pushing us away. It feels very personal and has been very hard on me emotionally.
In another way it could mean, here today at work, but who knows if I'll be here tomorrow. Who knows what this place has in store for us. Who knows if I'll have a job in a few months, or even tomorrow. This is the first time in my life I've felt like I've been in this position and it is so scary. But to gain some resemblance of having control over the situation, I did sit down and look at where we would be financially if I actually am let go. Basically, I would pull the kids out of any daycare, try to get 2 more kids to watch during the day, and get a part-time job outside of the house for another 30 hours a week, we would be ok. At least I know we could do it. At least I feel like we have some sort of plan B to turn on.
And worst case it is a reminder that we are all here today but may be gone tomorrow. Don't take any day for granted. You know me, a blog stalker, we'll the other day I was reading up on one of the blogs I follow, and followed over to a new blog from that page, and came across the blog of a family with a 7 year old boy, 5 year old boy and twin girls age 2. She had started the blog about a year ago, and it was just normal day to day stuff, just like I write about here. Yet, in August they found out completely out of the blue that one of the twins has neuroblastoma. And I guess I just kind of take that as a sign. Neouroblastoma has affected my life in so many ways, all remote ways, but it just keeps coming up. I know it is a sign for me. Anyways, it is the reminder of my greatest fear, that today I could be writing about how great the kids are and we are all doing great, and tomorrow's post could be something that was so horrible and horrific and in just that amount of time, our worlds could change. So, for everyone reading today, take the minute, if you are with your kids right now, call them over and give them all a hug and tell them how proud you are of them and how much you love them, call your husband at work, email and old friend, text your teenager out of nowhere that you love them. Do something in the moment, because we never know when this moment will end. And for that little girl, her name is Tuesday, and so they ask for prayers on Tuesday for Tuesday. So please pray for this little girl, I'm sure they will take prayers from strangers all the same.

Finally

Austin 'giving away my snuggles'


Mackenzie so proud of her medal for soccer.


Token Grant's Farm family pic - 2008


Turner brave enough to go inside and feed the goats.


Then Mackenzie got brave enough too.


"Hmmm mom, I though those bottles were for me."


Me and my big kids on the way out.

We FINALLY made it to Grant's Farm this weekend!! Austin's first trip. We got there right in time for the animal show, then fed the goats, hit the elephant show and then it was time to leave.... Perfect. It is by far my favorite place to go with the kids, it's not too long, not too much of a commitment for the day, and cheap (well free, but pay to park). I do have to say though, i think this was the first time I've ever been there and not gotten my two free beers. Friday night we hung out with our neighbors and the vodka crept up on me. Then I was up at 6 to make breakfast and go to Mackenzie's soccer game - where she just happened to score 2 goals again! - and then we came home, changed the kiddos, and left. I wasn't feeling so great, so I laid back in my seat. Ended up having to have Aaron pull over on the side of the highway. It took some self control on Aaron's part I'm sure not get out the camera and get paybacks on me! LOL But we had a great time at Grant's farm, that place just puts you in a good mood no matter what. I almost started crying looking at the my life while we were there, you know when it just hits in you a wave sometimes and you think - wow I have a good life. I look at my beautiful kids, and a husband that loves me, and even though we have stressors, we've got it good - we do know that.


Today Mackenzie and I went to church, I came home and mowed the yard, and then went out searching for jobs again. Hopefully something will come through for the holiday season. Other than that just a half dozen loads of laundry and some "spring" cleaning and that was about it. Austin did start running a fever tonight, figures. I'm hoping that it is gone by morning and he will be ok to go to the babysitters.

Back to work

Yesterday I came in for 1/2 day in the morning before Cameron had to go to work since the kids had to stay home again since Mackenzie couldn't go back to school since she had to be fever free for 24 hours. But they weren't running any fevers yesterday. It was weird, her fever spiked at noon the day before at 104, but then was gone by nighttime. Who knows. Today I'm back at work, just hoping I don't get any calls that the fever has come back. Austin never got it thank goodness.
This weekend we have gymnastics and 2 soccer games. Poor girl is going to be pooped! But this is the last weekend of soccer. We are planning to go to Grant's Farm tomorrow, and either this weekend or next still need to hit a pumpkin patch.
Some things I want to write for my own memory of Turner right now....he constantly carries around his 9 piece Diego puzzle and probably does it on average 100 times a day! Maybe we should get him more puzzles, he is really in to it right now, but then he would probably still want the same one. Lately when I'm changing him, he'll lean in to me and put his arms around my neck in a big bear hug and say "I love my mommy" and I return "I love my Turner". And man do I, he just makes me melt. Anytime you do something for him, he says "Thankome" (Thank you / welcome). Guess he figures it works which ever end he is on! And the funniest thing is that right now he is doing this funny southern drawl "YeahYa" for saying yes. Don't know where he got that from, but it is hilarious. Just some memories I want to make sure I never loose.

Home again

I was at work and got 2 phone calls within 1 minute of each other...both Turner and Mackenzie are running fevers. Mackenzie has to be fever free for 24 hours, so there is no way she can go back to school tomorrow. I don't know what we are going to do, guess I'll be home again. Not really any other options. I just hate that all this sickness comes at a time that work is so unstable. I worry about it, that it will look like I don''t have the level of commitment or something. But the facts are that Aaron has appointments that would have to be cancelled and we don't really get paid if he doesn't sell, and I can still work from home. We have 2 weeks at the end of the month that I'm going to be out some too because we will be in between babysitters. Ughhhh....oh well, it will work out. Any ideas? Mom, will you be able to come up for a day in those weeks to babysit one day so I can go in to work???

9 Month Stats

Saturday morning we split up, Aaron (and Aunt Caitlyn) took Mackenzie to her soccer game, where she scored 2 goals!, and I took the boys with me to go to Austin's 9 month checkup.
He isn't really that big. Here are his stats:
Height: 28 1/4 inches (50%)
Weight: 21 lbs 9 oz (75%)
Head Circumference: 18 1/4 inches (90%)
He got 2 shots, and Turner got his flu shot. Those all went well.


Then we came home and dropped the kids off with Caitlyn and headed out to the winery to meet up with somebody that Aaron works with. I stayed sober since I knew I had to drive us home, Aaron on the other hand didn't! I felt sorry for him the whole way home as he was hanging out the window, but was laughing all the way. Needless to say Aaron + red wine =

Friends

Sean and Austin!

Look who found the pots and pans cabinet! Seems like I have a kitchen "helper" on my hands now!! (Those spots all over him are drool...nice huh!)

Last night Fran and the kids came over. We had such a great time. Our kids love each other so much, they really are like cousins. The kids had a blast. Austin and Sean were checking each other out. And I was happy to have my good friend around me again.

(Pre)-Kindergarten Pictures

I was SOOOO excited when Mackenzie took out her school pictures the other day. Literally, I screeched and was jumping up and down. When Aaron got home I asked him if he wanted to see something that would make hm forget all his worries and smile ear to ear. He replied with "what did we win the lottery". Yes we did! I mean come on, aren't these the BEST school pictures ever?! How do I pic? And doesn't she look SOO grown up.



So then I had my mom send through a pic of me at about the same age. I know some people thinks she looks like me, but I just don't see it.


Unrelated story....but today we woke up to there being a man-hunt right around our neighborhood. He had wrecked his car on the highway near our exit. Don't know if they've caught the guy yet or not, but we are all safe. Mackenzie's school was closed today though, so she got to go to Nany's. So we are explaining to her what happened, that there is a bad man hiding from the police and they are trying to find him - so her rational was that she bets that guy was "just mad or sad because he didn't have parents who loved him". She is probably right, but gosh I love the view of the world through a 4 (and a half!) year old's eyes.

Back to work

Hmmmm...as I write the title to this post that seems like such an oxymoron statement. When did I stop working.....well, maybe i should have put, "Back to the office". So Turner did not have a fever yesterday, Austin broke his overnight. Both are still coughing something horrible, but they are at daycare. I keep thinking Austin is going to make himself throw up from coughing so bad, and Turner has broken blood vessels around his eyes from coughing so hard. Poor whittle guys:( But it is getting a little better day by day. I'm actually feeling alright today. I can feel that hint of a cold back there, but I'll try to keep it at bay.
Gosh, so what else is going on in our lives...yesterday I changed Mackenzie's room around, put the crib in Turner's room. Then put the TV/DVD player from our room in to her room. I'm hoping that this will get them sleeping in her room/bed more often and with Austin being in the other room we don't have to worry about waking him up. So last night they went to bed in there ok, but were still crawling in to our bed at 3. I know, I should just pick them up and take them back to bed, and it would probably only take a few nights and they would get it and probably get better sleep, but shhh, don't tell anyone, but it is a little of a guilty pleasure of mine (ours) to snuggle up to those little bodies at night. Of course when they are pushing me off my own pillow and I'm hanging on to the side of the bed by a thread I'm not so thrilled - but Aaron and I already know we are pushovers on the issue. Oh well, whatcha gonna do?
I also ran into the library yesterday and got this book. Think it will help??!!!

The boys went to the doctor's today. Seems it is just a really bad cold. Good news that it is nothing serious, but hard to know that there isn't anything or any medicine to give them to help them feel better. We were just sent home to ride it out. Turner did stop his fever today. Austin started his about 18 hours after Turner, so he is a little behind, so Austin still has a fever, but I'm hoping it is ready to break soon. But he sounds and looks so awful. I just want to cry every time he coughs, it sounds so horrible and I can tell that he is so uncomfortable.
Of course by the end of the afternoon, I started feeling like I'm starting to come down with it. But I loaded myself up with meds and feel alright right now. We'll see how tomorrow goes. But since I've taken off for sick kiddos, no taking off for myself to be sick. That is the life of a mom.
It was a very busy day today. Stay tuned tomorrow to see how everyone is doing.

Still Sick

The boys are still sick, have an awful cough, runny noses, still having fever (yes it's been since Thurs/Friday). It is so sad, sometime when they cough they just cry. I'll be calling once the doctor's office opens and taking them both in today. I stayed home again today, no way they could be at daycare. On a higher note, I'm doing better yesterday/today. Aaron gave me and the kids some good one on one attention yesterday and we had a great day. Well, gotta get going, we have to run Mackenzie up to school. I'll try to update after dr. appts.

It doesn't make sense.....I know

"She shoots - she SCORES!" TWO goals today!

The "Blue Lightening" team

Everyone in their soccer clothes

Check out the Mohawk - and no, I didn't do that intentionally - that is all natural!


It doesn't make sense. I have 3 of the most beautiful wonderful children who are all healthy (less the cold the boys are dealing with right now), I have a great husband who loves me so much, sure I'm stressed about not having as much money as I'd like but we do have money, a good house, and good life...and yet I sit here tonight going through uncontrollable fits of crying. I know it doesn't make sense. I know it isn't rational, but I can't change the way I feel. Today has been a crazy roller coaster. I go from one minute of being in a great mood and feeling like maybe I'm coming out of it, and then in the next minute I am in such deep despair and doing "the ugly cry". i know it is chemical/hormonal. I know it isn't a "true" representation of how I feel, but yet I can't change it. And then I just feel worse because I feel so bad and know that I shouldn't, I have nothing to be upset about, and then Aaron is so frustrated, I mean who can blame him, I don't even understand it myself, so how could he. I am only hoping that this is short lived and that my meds starting working soon. For anyone who hasn't gone through this, you may be thinking right now - Oh geesh, get over it - but then I'm sure there is at least one person out there that understands and is comforted knowing that they aren't alone. At least I'm one of the lucky people that know that this is what it is. How awful it would be to be one of the people who thought that this was unending. For those who don't know and don't understand, let me say this....it does no good to remind me how irrational it is, it does no good to act like it isn't real, it does no good to tell me how good I have it...what I need is to feel the pain, feel the sadness, feel validated, and cry to let it out.

About the boys - they are still sick, Turner still having fever - so I stayed home with them tonight while Aaron took Mackenzie to the birthday party. Turner is really bad, high fever, coughing, runny nose. And Austin is getting the bad croupy cough now too. I just heard that there are quite a few cased of whooping cough in the school district, please don't let this be what we have. I will take care of my babies, and know that I will take them to the doctor if I have any worries. The boys and I did get some good time together - went on a walk, sat outside on the blanket and chased bubbles and had a picnic. I do Love my boys!!

Sorry I've feel like I've been awful at updating lately. I've still been in the midst of a pretty good case of the funk lately. I'm still having the heart palps on a pretty frequent basis but I attribute them all to stress, don't think it is any underlying health problem or anything like that. And the problem is that I know it is completely irrational how stressed/upset I've been but I can't just snap my fingers and snap out of it. It takes time. So I just try to request extra hugs and snuggles and try to just be in the moment with the kids as much as I can. To help with some of the money stress, I am going to apply at JCPenny and Kohls for holiday help. I figure then I'll be making a little extra for spending money plus get a discount on the stuff so it will be even more helpful. I'll be turning those in this weekend, so wish me luck.
Friday I was home with the boys because Turner started running a fever on Thursday afternoon and he still has it and Austin has gotten up to a low grade fever too. Just the old cold, cough, fever. They basically feel fine when the medicine is working, it is just that last hour and until the new dose starts to kick in that Turner is just awful. Poor little guy. Today Mackenzie has a soccer game at 10:30. Caitlyn came over last night so that she could go too. It is so awesome that her and Cameron are here. I really do just love it. Cameron found a job yesterday at MrGoodscents. He is going to keep looking for something better, but at least it is something. And I came home Thursday to the dishes done, floor swept and vacuumed. He has no idea how big of a help that is. And we have a kids birthday party today too, but I'm not sure about Turner going so it may just be Aaron and Mackenzie. Tomorrow the Rams are off, so we'll probably go do something for a family fun day! I'm thinking maybe Grant's Farm, maybe the pumpkin patch? Anything will be fun.
And we did decide on the new babysitter so the kids will start there on November 10th. I'm going to pull them out of the current daycare 2 weeks prior to that so that we can go 2 weeks with no daycare cost for the boys. Just a way to save money in between the switch. So, if there are any volunteers for a day!! I have a few vacation days, Aaron can take 1, and then with Caitlyn and Cameron's help, hopefully we can pull it off. That's about all I got - time to get ready for soccer. She says she is going to score a goal today so we'll see!

OK, I'm back from the doctor. Sorry, you can't get rid of me easily. I'm healthy as a horse (are horses healthy?) and just perfect (as I'm sure you were already thinking:)). So we adjusted my mood meds because since i stopped breastfeeding it doesn't seem like mine are working anymore. Same thing happened when i got pregnant. I had been fine on my meds and then "poof", it was like all of a sudden I wasn't even taking anything. I think it has something to do with the hormone difference, like they just can't sustain themselves. Anyways, I'm going back on what I was on before I got pregnant, so I'm sure it will work. So of course as a new doctor he is asking me all of my history, and I'm telling him about the depression, and he is checking to see if it is the "your just a new mom" or "this chick is gonna run out in the middle of 40" type, and so we are going through my whole history - sorry, but I couldn't help but laugh when he asked if I thought it ran in my family!!! Nothing serious, but just need a low level dose to keep from the great valleys and on a common ground. For the heart palps, he said basically, yes it happens, but didn't see any indication to think of it as anything serious. Just one of them things. he gave me some medicine to knock this headache I've felt like I've had for the past month, ugghhh - so hopefully that will work. And we did blood draws, but I'm confident those will come back fine too. So.... your stuck with me!!

I just made an appointment for today at 11 for this heart arrhythmia I’m experiencing today. I had it 3 times on the way in to work and 3 times again in the past 40 minutes and have a tight chest, a little more than I'm comfortable waiting till Friday to have checked out. I'll try to post later today after my appt.

The past 2 weeks or so I've been searching for a new daycare. Right now the kids are at a fantastic home daycare, but it is located by my work. With my work location transitioning to a different site after the beginning of the year, I figured I needed to go ahead and start looking for someone. I had met with 2 people that were not at all what we were looking for, but last night I think we may have met our match. Keep your fingers crossed that I don't find out she was a serial killer or anything! And she lives in our school district, so that would mean that Mackenzie would be able to ride the bus to/from her house next year for kindergarten. I'm not counting my chickens yet, but at least I have hope. As anyone knows, finding care for your children is such a stressful thing. And it is especially hard because I wish that it could just be me. It always brings to the forefront how much time they will be there compared to how much time they are at our house. I can't even think about it, gets to be too badly. BUT, I do believe I'm a better mom for having to work, and my kids are probably better kids for having to go to Nany's. If I had been able to be a stay at home mom when Mackenzie was born, I don't think I would have been able to fully appreciate it. Life takes turns that we don't necessarily think we want it to, but then it all works out. There is a bigger plan and I have to trust in that and just go with it.
Things are still going good with my brother living with us. I really truely enjoy having him around. He is still putting in applications and folllowing up with places, but nothing has turned out yet. I'm sure it will soon though. Turner still continues to call him "Boy", it is so darn cute. Turner just absolutely LOVES uncle Cameron. I love that the kids will have these memories of Caitlyn and Cameron staying with us. It will bond them. I just asked Cameron the other day to promise me that when Turner is a teenager, and I'm "the stupid mom who doesn't have a clue", that he please guide him down the right path!!!! See it is like an early investment to make sure my brothers and sisters get on the right path themselves, because I know that there will come a time in my life when they are much more influencial on my children than I can be.
Aaron has been sick the past two days. The doctor said she was pretty sure he has streph. He hasn't hardly been able to eat or drink anything. I can tell it really hurts him. Mackenzie stayed home yesterday with him because the night before she had come in to our room in the middle of the night crying that her ear hurt (flashback to my childhood!), so I wanted her to go to the doctor to see how bad it was. The doctor said she does have a minor ear infection, but wanted to see if it would clear up on its own before treating with antibiotics since Mackenzie wasn't complaining anymore that it hurt. Last night she did fine, this morning she was saying that her throat and ear hurt a little (but I hae sneaky suspicions she was trying to just stay home again), but I went ahead and gave her a little Ibuprofen and Benadryll to help with the discomfort. Turner of course then being the copycat, decided that his ear hurt, but you know that after just a dropper full of water that it was all better!! Who knew!! LOL
I've been having a little bit a heart arrhythmia/murmur thing over the past few days. I've always felt it here or there, but it has been really noticeable over the past couple days. Like that feeling you get if you were standing right in front of a big bass drum when it was hit. Just tightening in my chest, causes me to catch my breath. So I called my dad this morning because he has a heart murmur. Don't know if that would be genetic or not, but he said that they don't do anything to treat it, and that it is fine. I have a doctor's appt on Friday to meet with a new primary care (now that I don't foresee having an OB for my regular doc) and I'll mention it to him, but I'm not worried about it being anything that I need to worry about until then. My dad said that stress makes it worse, hmmmm.....wonder if that applies here!
Can you believe it is already October!!