All that work and THIS is what I get

SOOOOOO, NOT a good day. Today was the last day of bootcamp. So I had the lady do my measurements and stuff again to see my "progress". I figured I hadn't really lost that much weight these last few weeks, only about 3-4 pounds, but surely my shape was changing and I was just gaining muscle right??? Well, NO. The only measurement that went down was my hips, which makes sense since that was probably just my bones closing back in from expanding for the birth. But EVERY other single freaking measurement went UP. Yep, so I'm not lying, my stomach, thighs, arms and body fat all increased. I was so pissed and just wanted to break down crying right then and there. I tried to work out, but just wasn't mentally in the game this morning. I mean, apparently it isn't doing any good so why in the hell did I bust my A$$, and the past two weeks have also been going to the gym an additional two days a week for cardio, all for nothing. I should have just stayed in bed and been a lazy A$$. Right now I wish that I didn't have to worry about the kids and could just go to the bar, which is a slight problem considering it is only 8 in the morning. I'm just so frustrated. People at work are dropping pounds, people go to the bathroom a little extra and 15 pounds falls off.....why the hell can't I catch a freakin break. I don't know anyone who has this much issue. I just want to say screw it all and go back to eating whatever I want and not working out at all, maybe THEN it would come off.
I guess I'm not the only one gaining weight, I weighed Austin yesterday and he is up to a whopping 15 pounds, that is up more than a pound and a half in about 2 weeks!!! At least I've accomplished something lately. Guess my milk is just high fat since I have so much extra hanging around.

Dino days

Yesterday I took the kids to a Parents As Teachers event on dinosaurs. They had a good time. It was a good free activity for an hour. Turner is really in to dinosaurs these days and Mackenzie loves all of the Land Before Time movies. Today we don't have anything going on, which is good because I'd hate to be hauling the kids in and out of the car in this rain. I had actually thought we would go workout today, but not unless the rain stops.

I think we will be getting our van tomorrow. Hopefully it is what we are expecting which means we are getting a really good deal on it. Nice that Aaron works for Lou Fusz. Guess as much as it initially hits you as a bad thing, there are a lot of benefits to our van going out now....like the fact that Aaron currently works for Lou Fusz and that we still have some trade in value, and that it hasn't been too disruptive having only 1 car since I'm still at home. So, I'm trying to look at it that this is a blessing in disguise. But I can't help but stress over having to have a car payment. Times are going to be very strapped. We've done a tight budget, and looking at that daycare cost being so much more than our mortgage, that is when it kind of sucks the breath right out of me! But all my little guys are well worth the struggle and we will survive. Just hope that we don't get any more "Surprises".

Easter

Saturday we went to an Easter Egg hunt and froze our tails off...but the kids had fun. Sunday we got up and did an Easter egg hunt in our living room/kitchen for the kids. They had so much fun. Turner just kept running around yelling "moooo eggggs mom!" Then we started converting some of our family videos to DVD. It was such a fun day watching them together and to remember and look back at ourselves before even being married. The kids loved watching us on TV. Then in the afternoon we went out to Aaron's cousin's house and had a GREAT time and GREAT food. I think i gained like 2 pounds. Oh well.... Then yesterday the kids and I drove down to see my family again. i had a meeting to go to, so my dad watched the two older ones, and I took Austin with me. It was a nice visit.
And then we come to today.....we took the van in because the check engine light came on again - remember we just got repairs done on it a week or so ago. Well apparently that wasn't what was wrong and it is a much larger problem. One not worth fixing, so we have been looking for a new (well used, but new to us) van today. Luckily with Aaron working for a dealership company we are going to get a good deal, but we were just getting the van paid off and really relying on not having a car payment once we had to start sending Austin to daycare, but I guess somehow we will make it work. This sucks though, just when we think we are going to get ahead a little, we get shoved back down. Guess I should start looking on the bright side that we found out before the car crapped out on us and we can still get some trade-in value for it.
And this is my last week home, and the van we think we are going to get won't be ready until Friday so I'll be car-less all week. Well tomorrow I'm taking Aaron to work since we already had stuff planned, but the rest of the week we'll just be around here.

Well, I think that Austin has been hearing me tell him that I wish he were little again...last night he was up about every 2-3 hours! Yes I'm tired today, but as goofy as I am I'm a little nostalgic today and can't help but be a little happy that my baby isn't all grown up. He was so sweet last night. But I am glad it isn't like that every night now. He has been giving me a 6 hour spurt most nights. I still have him in the bassinet until he is sleeping completely through the night; just easier for me. I'm sure I wouldn't be so happy about last night if I had to go to work today.

Happy Birthday Nana!

Happy birthday mom, hope you enjoy this little video. We are so proud of you and happy that you are happy. We love you.

Craft Time

We've done a few "crafty" thing here lately. This weekend we did Easter Eggs and then today I let the kids paint. Of course they love being able to get messy with anything, so both activites were a big hit. You'll have to excuse the blurry on some of the pictures. About 2/3 of the pictures I take these days come out blurry like this - it is making me CRAZY. I hate not being able to get good pictures of my kids but just don't have the money right now to buy a new camera. I don't know what is wrong with this darn camera. I don't think I'll ever own a Sony camera again. And I HATE that it doesn't print the date on the pictures, escpecially for the pictures of Austin because even 24 hours can show a difference. Ughhhhh......so frusterating.

I know it has been a while since I posted some pics. One is of Mackenzie and her very first best friend Jacie. We met Jacie's parents in birthing classes while we were pregnant with the girls and have been good friends ever since and the girls shared babysitters when they were younger. I drove down to Cape with the kids on Wednesday so we could have a playdate. They were so cute playing together. Like they were never separated.

Next are the pictures from the Easter Egg hunt yesterday. Yes it was a little cold, and wet, but I'm glad that we are the kind of family that can still go even when it is cold and wet. The kids had so much fun.

The last picture is of Austin last night. He is just getting so big.

Well, time for me to go and take Turner out of the house for some one on one time. He has been acting out a little so I think maybe he just needs some undivided attention.