Sick Kiddos

So Turner is still sick, runny a high fever still, but luckily no more throwing up. So he stayed home with daddy this morning. I took Austin and Mackenzie in to daycare, but as soon as we got there Mackenzie threw up, so we packed up and went right back home. So all the kids are home with daddy today. Mackenzie is running a high fever also. So far Austin is OK, keep your fingers crossed there. Times like this I just want to be home with my babies, but at least they are home with daddy and i know he takes wonderful care of them. I'm sure they will get plenty of snuggles today. I am actually relieved that Mackenzie is sick. I know that sounds awful, but this morning when I was getting ready and Turner was burning up, all of my thoughts of course went to worse case scenario, and by the end of my shower I was working out in my head how much I would need to keep working to keep our medical benefits while taking care of my terminally ill child. I know, it is awful and completely irrational, but these are the things that keep me in a constant state of panic as a mother. All the stories you here are, "he was a perfectly healthy boy, and we thought he just wasn't kicking a cold....." To add to it, I'm not that much of a superstitious person, but when I got the kids home I ran up to Walgreens to get some more medicine and some 7-Up, and my total came to $6.66. I just feel like I should go home and keep my family safe inside for the day.